Ok, so this is the deal, I’ve no clue what this blog is going to be about from hereon in. I’m just going to keep showing up as I promised to myself, and, I’m going to keep fighting the fight and, working towards making my goals a reality.
Today, for the first time, I declared that I am a woman of colour! Fuck! Do you know how hard that was and, how liberating it was? For almost 50 years I have been in limbo about who I am and where I fit in. I’ve been a blubbering mess over the past few days reading Layla F Saad’s book, Me and White Supremacy because I was able to nod my head in agreement with what she wrote.
Over the last couple of years in particular, I was wondering whether I was in fact a woman of colour, but I was too scared to actually ask anyone. What if they said no or looked at me as if I was insane. I mean, me of all people shouldn’t worry about the latter, I’ve often been called crazy because I am unapologetic about speaking the truth. And yes, I am like a dog with a bone when it comes to speaking out about injustice…I mean, how can’t you be?!
Speaking out about injustice or pulling people up about their bad behaviour can be a very unpopular job. You’re not going to make lots of friends, but the friends you do make are going to be so worth it. I’ve never had many friends in my life. And when I was younger it hurt. But back then I was mistaking popularity with friendship. Life is all about learning! Fuck, it’s never ending and it can get so tiring all the learning we have to do.
But, if you’re not learning and you’re not uncomfortable, then you’re not living. I believe we were put here to be internally uncomfortable until we fully align with the truth of who we are. We are constantly challenged to become the truest and best version of who we are meant to be. We were also put here to feel all of the feelings, and yes, sometimes the shitty ones more. But, I’ve realised that it’s those of us who are constantly getting pushed by the Universe and, who are doing the work that need to speak out louder. There are too many people with large platforms, or just big fucking mouths that are taking to speaking out, and a lot of them only have their own interests at heart. But, on the flip side, thankfully there are people like Billie Eilish, who has millions of fans all over the world who speaks with passion and is unapologetic about the truth. She’s fucken brilliant! Go follow her! She’s part of the hope we have for the future.
Anyway, I know I’m all over the place with this blog today. It’s hard to stay focused and to actually turn up, so be gentle with me, and with yourself. I’ll be back tomorrow!
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