I don’t know about you, but why is it that when I wake up in the morning I feel more tired than when I went to bed? It’s as though I leave my body every night and go astro travelling or something. I swear I must be doing a lot of miles and some real epic shit because it takes me until it’s almost time to go back to bed until I actually feel awake again! Does anyone else experience this or is it just me? I stopped drinking coffee almost a year ago because of this because I was drinking like six or seven cups a day to kick start the motor and felt drained and, highly anxious! It wasn’t helping so I quit it. I went cold turkey with caffeine and I started to detox and I swear I felt as though I was going to die. I even went to my doctor just to make sure I wasn’t actually about to die, he told me to go home! 😂

Cutting out caffeine from my life, apart from the pain of detoxing, was one of the best things I have ever done for myself. I love the smell of coffee and still crave it, so yes, I will admit, I have a jar of decaf in the pantry and do drink an occasional 3 o’clock “coffee.” I was a heavy smoker many years ago and it took me years to actually give up. Eventually I did the same thing. I made a decision that enough was enough, and, actually my son asked me to swear on his life that I would never smoke another cigarette again. I swore on his life, so there was no way that I was ever going to put a cigarette in my mouth again! That was over eleven years ago. I must admit though, because of the lawyer in me, I found a loop hole and smoked cigars and molasses tobacco from a hooker pipe on occasion. But, eventually even stopped doing that. The funny thing is that nowadays, I hate the smell of cigarette smoke. It makes me mad most times when I have to smell someone else’s second hand smoke, but, if I’m out for a drink or socialising, sometimes I ask my smoker friends to blow their smoke in my direction because I love it! 😆 Crazy huh?!

Fucken addictions! I’ve been an addict of some sort or another for most of my life. Cigarettes, caffeine, gambling for a short period of time, food, shopping, playing Mario Brothers and Galaga, and heaps of other things. There has always been a crutch I’ve needed to lean on, or something to distract me from what I didn’t want to face. Myself and the direction that my soul wanted me to take in my life and the steps it wanted me to take. You know, those thoughts that don’t leave you alone, the ones that nag at you? For example it’s told me to lose weight and I was always the petulant child who continued to ignore the wise and accurate advice my soul was giving me because I didn’t want to think about it or acknowledge it because it was right! The thoughts I had of losing weight for example or even giving up smoking was that it was going to be too hard and, I avoided too hard as much as possible. The ironic thing about that is that the thoughts are the most painful part of actually choosing and doing something about it! 🤦🏻‍♀️ Life is much less agro when I decide to listen to my soul and a lot healthier and liberating.

Weight Loss

Yesterday I was toying with the idea of becoming a vegan/vegetarian, and I’ve decided that yes, I will go down that route, HOWEVER, I’m going to start as a pescatarian…and eventually phase that out too. I ended up cooking a Persian/Iranian vegan dish last night. It’s called Dal Addas, it’s a red lentil and potao dish, yum!! Unfortunately I added sweet tamarind from a bottle to mine so it was sweet, still nice but not the right taste. I’ll definitely be making this again, with limoo amoni which is dried Persian lime, yum!! You can use lemon instead of tamarind. And, I added an extra potato because you can never have enough potato in a recipe! If you try it, let me know what you think. I want to try the eggplant dish soon. I’ll ask my mum for the recipe and I’ll let you know how it goes, and give you the recipe if you want it. Oh, and I didn’t go walking last night. 😬 I didn’t feel guilty either because I didn’t eat my full 1200 calories yesterday. I’ll go today, no excuses!

Well that’s me for today. I hope you have a lovely Sunday and, I’ll see you again tomorrow. Stay safe and thanks for reading! ✨💜



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