Today is already feeling like a struggle! I didn’t sleep well last night. I felt sick in the middle of the night, like I literally went and threw up! I’ve been having trouble with digesting my food over the last week, even though I’ve changed my eating habits! My mum sent me a package from Australia and I received it yesterday and she also sent some sachets of my favourite chai latte. Well, I was like a crazy woman when I saw them. I boiled the kettle and made one, and, I didn’t even wait for it to cool down and immediately took a massive gulp and I swear, I think I burnt my esophagus! 🤦🏻♀️ I didn’t burn my mouth or lips, well, maybe the roof of my mouth and tongue a bit, but it’s like that gulp went straight down to the bottom of my throat. I can still feel the burning feeling all the way down my throat…have any of you ever experienced this hell before? As you can see I’m feeling a bit sorry for myself today. However, I am still very motivated, (slower maybe), but very motivated because of the private messages and emails I’ve been receiving from friends and people I know who are reading the blogs. It’s very exciting because they are sharing their fears and dreams and lists with me, and, I’m dragging them along this ride with me so they can achieve their success too. It’s always more fun to have others to share the ride with and I’ve always been a more the merrier type of girl.
Enough is enough, we have to stop hiding and procrastinating and holding ourselves back. It’s a crime against humanity in my eyes when I see someone with massive potential and dreams hold herself back because of fear or some other excuse. And, I’m brutal when I have to be, it is just excuses that hold you back, and ultimately it’s you that holds yourself back. You can do whatever it is you want to do if you choose differently. Just make the choice that you are going to achieve whatever it is and watch how the Universe ushers in the right information or person to help or support you at exactly the right time. I find that when I am stuck it’s because I’m sweating the small stuff, all the details and eventually I turn it all into a massive mountain and, I remain buried underneath, as does any progress. So, I do the very next most obvious thing I can do to move myself forward. Sometimes that thing sends me down a rabbit hole that I didn’t really need to venture down, but, I always learn something new along the way. Also, don’t be scared to try a different method or way of doing things! That’s what you are here for, to experiment and test and experience. And, if you don’t get the results you were expecting, don’t think of yourself or it as a failure, I’m sure you would have learned something from that experience. I’d rather try than not because my worst fear is to die with regrets, so I try to make sure that I do things even if they seem pointless. For example, I went through this phase of thinking that I wanted to become a barista, I thought about it for months and months and eventually I enrolled in a short barista course and once I was there learning, I realised, nope, I don’t want to be a barista. I had heaps of fun learning how to make all kinds of different coffees and meeting new people, but, knew that it wasn’t what I wanted to do as a job. If I didn’t at least take that next step, I would have continually thought about it and, would probably think that I missed out on my calling, therefore feeling unnecessarily regretful! It was a win/win experience in my eyes.
I told you that I had printed the book out and, yesterday I spent the afternoon on the couch reading and editing. It was tedious at times because I have read and re-read and edited and re-written parts of the book about a gazillion times and to be honest, I’m sick to death of those parts. I was glad when it was five o’clock, that’s my self imposed knock off time! In the past I never had actual hours and was always working. I didn’t have a healthy work life balance. Now I do. I’m not hugely strict with it though, if I’m writing and I’m on a roll, or making a website and the design is flowing nicely, I keep going. I’ve got a lot of client work to catch up on today so I don’t think I’ll be doing any editing or learning the ukulele today. I’ll leave that for the weekend.
I weighed myself the first day I posted and pledged that I am going to lose 15 kilograms and this morning I weighed myself and, I’ve already lost 400grams! I stick to the 1200 calories and, I have started walking again, every night after dinner. I aim to hit 10,000 steps, but have only made it 8900 steps. What’s 1100 steps between friends?! 😂 Oh, and tonight is hamburger night because every Friday is for hubby and I. And since we’ve been in iso and, we’re new to Belfast, we haven’t found the best hamburger place yet, so, my husband has been making our hamburgers and I have to say, they are the nicest hamburgers I’ve ever had, and trust me when I tell you that I have had many a hamburger over the years! He also bought frozen chips to put in the oven but they tasted like crap and last week we had run out of them but we had some potatoes, so I peeled them and cut them up, sprinkled some salt on them, oiled the oven tray and voilá, we had some really tasty chips! I’m doing that again tonight. And, the beauty of this is that I can eat a hamburger on this weight loss regime. It’s not a diet, it’s just learning portion control and adding in some walking too.
Alright, I better go and tackle my to do list for today! Happy Friday. 🤩
365 Days to Achieving My Success